Ok.
So I figure that the moment Ryan and I are done unpacking and finally are "settled in" at our new place, we will find out that we are pregnant...

any body else understand my reasoning here?

we are unpacking the spare bedroom (i.e. - the catch all room until we put a crib in here) and I am exhausted. Something feels really positive this month. Don't know why, but I'm not going to put a dark cloud over it and wait for the rain like I always seem to. I am going to remain positive until we get a negative pregnancy test AND Aunt Flo comes.

Please pray for my sanity. I am not an optimist, but rather a natural pessimist.

think positive.
think positive.
we're 2 days late.
think positive.
think positive.

on the plus side; my dear dear dear dear friend Jen Gross gave me a bunch of baby clothes a few weeks back and I haven't stored them yet. Its nice to have a little suprise support that way. We went over to the Gross' a few weeks back for dinner one night and when we sat down, she pointed at this bag full of baby clothes and says "those are for you". I asked why. she said "for when you have your baby silly. we're passing them along to the people who will need it next." I wept a little in the bathroom a few min later. this woman that i am supremely jealous of (she has 2 beautiful boys) is here, supporting us in our infertility.

Thank the universe for the little things. I would say thank God, but I feel saying the universe encompasses Him and fate and Buddha and Allah and good vibes and all of it.

think positive.
think positive.
think positive.